When everything you know changes overnight

Friday, August 20, 2010

I was driving home from Oklahoma City to Tulsa. With about an hour left in my commute my back began to cramp and shortly thereafter my right arm joined in with throbbing pain. As I was nearing home I nearly had to pull over and stop as I was flooded with waves of pain. I really didn't think much of the pain and wrote it off as a back spasm.

When everything you know is about to change overnight.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

By now, the pain in my back and arm began to impede my ability to perform day-to-day tasks and even walk for that matter. Sadi suggested I get a massage and off I went to the masseuse for an hour long massage, I felt a bit better. But, just a short time later the waves of pain flooded back through me and I spent the rest of the day laying down.

I still didn't think too much of the pain and figured it'd go away by the morning.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

After a night of increasing pain and little sleep, Sadi finally convinced me to go to the E.R. at 5 a.m. When we arrived, I felt a bit embarrassed telling the triage nurse that I had back pain, even if I was barely able to walk.

Initially, the E.R. doc thought I was having heart problems and hooked me up to the EKG, took ample viles of blood and then sent me off to radiology for a chest x-ray. All the results came back negative, yet the pain kept getting worse. After a series of pain meds were feed through my I.V., including morphine (did I mention how bad the pain was?), the pain refused to yield.

The doc came back and was about to discharge me. I mentioned the meds did not do much of anything for my pain which gave the doc reason to pause. On a whim, he said: Let's get you a CT scan to make sure nothing's wrong inside your heart. And off I went back to radiology.

An hour later the doc returned to my room accompanied by another doc. When they entered, I knew something wasn't right when they brought with them an air of seriousness. The good news was the CT scan showed that my heart was healthy. And then they told me that the scan revealed a large mass sitting a couple of inches below my heart.

The docs could not identify the mass, nor did they want to speculate. They said I'd have to check-in to the hospital so they could perform a series of more thorough tests. This is not good.

Since this was a Sunday, nearly all the facilities in the hospital were closed. So, Sadi and I spent the rest of the day as an in-patient. Me, I was being injected with all sorts of pain meds until we found one that began to reduce the pain. Sadi, she was being a trooper and taking care of anything I needed.

Everything I thought I knew changed overnight.

Monday, August 23 to Saturday, August 28, 2010

I spent the next week in the hospital being poked, prodded, x-ray'd, biopsy'd, bone-scanned, CT-scanned, injected with radioactive material, scanned some more, angio-grammed and given ample amounts of pain medication.

I'm not sure I've ever been as scared as I was those first couple of days. We had no idea what this mass was inside of me. All we knew was this mass was sitting a couple of inches below my heart, was around 9"x4" (yes, that big!) and completely surrounds my vena cava (the big giant vein feeding all the blood from the lower half of the body to the heart's bottom right ventricle).

Was this cancer? Was this spreading through my body? What is this?

The initial conclusion is I have a ganglioneuroma. A tumor originating from my spine. A tumor so large and strong it has caused a curvature in my spine. A tumor growing very rapidly. For all the nastiness of this tumor, there is a positive: it is benign.

What's to come?

The tumor must be surgically removed. This is not an everyday surgery. The tumor is attached to my spine, resides in the retro-peritoneum, completely surrounds the vena cava and is positioned near quite a few vital organs. This is more than a benign tumor.

We've been told this type of tumor is rare. So rare that a tumor surgeon may only see this once in their life. Like everything else in my life, I just have to be different.

We were hoping to be headed to a specialty surgeon this week to begin the lengthy process of surgery and recovery. Unfortunately, figuring this out is taking much longer than we anticipated. As soon as we know where we'll be heading, we'll be sure to let everyone know.

Thanks for listening and please consider the Tumor Surgery Fund

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Comments

Sadi O.
Sadi O. United States
9/2/2010 2:47:34 PM Permalink

We'll get that tumor. I'm with you all the way.
Love You, Babe :-*

Teddy
Teddy United States
9/2/2010 3:02:05 PM Permalink

Showoff!

I love you more than Sadi (well, almost more. I think Kelly loves you more).  When it's removed, you know you have to save it.

Fraser
Fraser United States
9/2/2010 8:18:26 PM Permalink

Hey K!

You are always going big!  I just never thought like this.  We (Kristen, Yuri, Aleksei and Sasha)are keep our fingers crossed for you.

Fraser

Oli
Oli Argentina
9/2/2010 8:28:55 PM Permalink

Once it's removed.. plese send it over.. we will all have a very nice BBQ !

Oli Smile

Dave H.
Dave H. United States
9/2/2010 8:32:19 PM Permalink

Kindler, wow when you do something you go all the way. I mean really are you trying to get into Guinness with that thing? Seriously I am glad to hear its benign and it sounds like you will be all set once they get it out.

The company I work for builds medical devices and we have a ton of info for great surgeons of all types.

Let me know if you need any info for the docs in your area I am sure I can get some recommendations.

I look forward to reading about your quick recovery on here. Until then my family will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Oh one last thing I agree with Teddys statement you should totally keep it. Give it a name and keep it in your office.

Bill Mac
Bill Mac United States
9/2/2010 8:36:19 PM Permalink

Kindler-Sadi:

Fraser shared this with me.  I am so sorry to hear about the tumor and will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers.

Think positive thoughts!


Bill

Olya
Olya Ukraine
9/2/2010 8:58:18 PM Permalink

Kindler,

If Jason and I can bluff the roulette, you can bluff this tumor!!! )))) I know everything will be good!

Good idea on creating the site - I'll forward this. I know some people that know some people... Smile

Kindler+Sadi: stay strong and positive! We're thinking about you. See you soon.

Debora
Debora United States
9/2/2010 9:42:12 PM Permalink

I am sorry to hear about this. All the best for you in your recovery process. I will be thinking of you.

Lee Howard
Lee Howard United States
9/2/2010 9:58:26 PM Permalink

I'm sorry to hear all this. Just know that I'm here for you both if and when you need me.

Kari Mirabal
Kari Mirabal United States
9/2/2010 10:16:35 PM Permalink

You are in my prayers. Thinking of you and believing all will be well. You are tough and together you and Sadi have so many friends and family surrounding you with support and love.

Kari and Rey

Mattias
Mattias United States
9/2/2010 10:19:41 PM Permalink

Kindler:  Can't believe the news. Wow.... Try to keep up a positive attitude. That helps with all battles in life so stay strong and positive. You're a young whipper snapper (that's an OKIE term) so you're going to have a quick recovery.

What a great idea to have this website. Keep us posted and we will all be sending positive thoughts and thinking about you and Sadi.

Jessica
Jessica United States
9/2/2010 10:57:06 PM Permalink

Kindler,
Hang in there. I know you will be fine. Keep everyone up to date and if either you or Sadi need anything, please let me know!

Nadia P
Nadia P Australia
9/2/2010 11:18:34 PM Permalink

Just heard the news. Sending you only good vibes and wishing you a speedy recovery Kindler.

Kelley Rao
Kelley Rao United States
9/2/2010 11:33:49 PM Permalink

Lots of good thoughts and well wishes sending your way, Kindler.  -Kel

Caine
Caine United States
9/2/2010 11:42:54 PM Permalink

Kindler,

Just rub some Speick on that shit!

I look forward to us playing some cards soon brother.

Caine

kindler
kindler United States
9/3/2010 12:35:09 AM Permalink

Thank You everyone for your well wishes. Your presence and support during this time means the world to me.

Linda & David Nicholls
Linda & David Nicholls Australia
9/3/2010 12:37:54 AM Permalink

Best wishes for a speedy recovery, K-man. Much love!

bjorn
bjorn United States
9/3/2010 1:21:54 AM Permalink

Kindler,
Good luck to you on beating this thing.  We are still around so let us know if you need anything at all.

Jeff Marsalla
Jeff Marsalla United States
9/3/2010 6:38:13 AM Permalink

K,

So that's what you look like. I've been working with you for what...about 12 years and have never had the opportunity to meet you. I was beginning to think you were a droid! THANK YOU for including me on you list of "Family and Friends" and sharing this very personal information with me. At first I was speechless, but now after reading about the findings and the plan I'm confident that there will be a positive outcome. Learning it is benign was a huge positive step. With today’s medical advancements I'm confident they will "get that sucker out of there" so you can get on with your recovery.

All the best to you K.

Jeff Marsalla
EarthWORKS Machinery Company

David P.
David P. United States
9/3/2010 7:22:24 AM Permalink

Jeff, he is a droid.  What they have apparently discovered is his energy pack.  

KIndler, you'll beat this, and you'll end up with an even cooler story than Stephen Ferry's.  Keep all of us posted.

You are in our thoughts.

dp

Kelli
Kelli United States
9/3/2010 7:40:05 AM Permalink

Kindler and Sadi - Sending sooo much love and energy.  Please please please - if there's anything I can do, let me know.  And truly, Kindler, you can get through anything!!!

Blessings,
Kelli

Slavko
Slavko Croatia
9/3/2010 9:48:41 AM Permalink

Kindler - Sorry to hear the news!!  Hang tough, I know you have the strength to call that tumors' bluff!!  Lots of Love to you and Sadi!!

Mad Dog
Mad Dog United States
9/3/2010 10:53:10 AM Permalink

So sorry to hear this after it's been so long. My thoughts, energy, wishes, and anything else I've got are with you.

Christie
Christie United States
9/3/2010 11:09:41 AM Permalink

Hi Kindler,
Fraser passed this along to me, I am so sorry to hear the news.  You are in my thoughts and prayers! Stay strong!
Christie

Sinclair
Sinclair United Kingdom
9/3/2010 11:13:03 AM Permalink

Shit!

Stephanie (Sullivan) Rewis
Stephanie (Sullivan) Rewis United States
9/3/2010 11:25:03 AM Permalink

Oh Kindler, what a pain in the neck! Errrr, back I mean... You can't imagine my relief upon reading the benign word—I was ready to burst into tears. Yes, it's scary and painful, but the fact that it's benign is such a huge plus in this fight. And please DO take your time to find the absolute best surgeon no matter where you have to go. Maybe even one that's done this before. Laughing

Hugs to you and Sadi and please keep us posted!
Stef.

Michael Wiley
Michael Wiley United States
9/3/2010 1:12:09 PM Permalink

Hey...stay strong! Keep the updates coming when you can, and take the rest and care you need.  Pulling for you..

Mike

Tom Muck
Tom Muck United States
9/3/2010 1:12:56 PM Permalink

Best of luck Kindler. Very sorry to hear the news, but i hope you have a speedy recovery.

Tom

Peggie Brown
Peggie Brown United States
9/3/2010 2:54:21 PM Permalink

Just read the news Kindler. Please feel our love and prayers for you. May He grant you strength.

Kim Mazzola
Kim Mazzola United States
9/3/2010 3:01:14 PM Permalink

Kindler,

So sorry to hear about all this. I will send you prayers and wishes for a speedy recovery. Stray strong and positive!!!

chelsea chase
chelsea chase United States
9/3/2010 6:16:38 PM Permalink

love you lots and lots!!  

Flo Nelson
Flo Nelson United States
9/3/2010 6:47:38 PM Permalink

Really sorry to hear about this - what a drag to go through. Glad to see your sense of humor still functioning and wishing you a really speedy recovery - the humor will definitely help.

Flo

Mark Horn
Mark Horn United States
9/4/2010 6:32:13 PM Permalink

Dude!!!!!! Hang in there man. Let me know if I can help with anything. We have good docs out here at UCH. And even better recovery room nurses!

Stacy Chase
Stacy Chase United States
9/4/2010 11:28:32 PM Permalink

Kindler and Sadi,

Bailee says to think magic thoughts and you will be all better before you know it.  Forrest says to get better because your too tall to get sick.  We are pulling for you.

Hugs,
stacy, Bailee & Forrest

Jo in Leros
Jo in Leros United Kingdom
9/5/2010 8:29:52 AM Permalink

Shit indeed. I'm so sorry to hear of this Kindler. My thoughts and best wishes are with you.

Jo in Leros

Marc
Marc United States
9/6/2010 8:15:14 PM Permalink

Holy Shit Brutha!

I am shocked to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know you will beat this just like you beat me on the poker table.

John S
John S United States
9/7/2010 12:39:51 AM Permalink

Hey Kindler,

We miss you up in the peace room and can't wait for your return.  I wish you all the best and I'm keeping the good thoughts for a speedy recovery.

Take care,
John

kindler
kindler United States
9/7/2010 11:28:08 AM Permalink

There have been many more bad days than good recently. But, your supportive words really do make the bad days so much more manageable.

Thank You Everyone.
::kindler::

Thane and Marcia
Thane and Marcia United States
9/8/2010 8:29:25 PM Permalink

Kindler,

We along with Bailee are sending Majic thoughts your way, hope you make a full recovery soon! let us know if we can help.
Lots of Love to you and Sadi,
Marcia and Thane  

Win Day
Win Day Canada
9/13/2010 9:04:39 AM Permalink

Wowsers, Kindler! Just heard the news -- best of everything.  You'll beat this!

Chris Caffes
Chris Caffes United States
10/14/2010 12:49:05 AM Permalink

Kindler,

   You are all in our thoughts and prayers! We are confident and full of faith in the fact that you our both in the best hands and that you have the stregth to beat his. Altough I've only known you and Sadi a few days I love you like my own family.

Sharing your Love!

Chris & Family
The Restaurant

Melissa Caffes
Melissa Caffes United States
10/14/2010 8:53:45 AM Permalink

Hi,

You had your "Last Supper" at my father and brother's restaurant and I saw your post. I am a nurse and after reading your posts, felt compelled to write. Your surgery is today, so here's to your recovery. I agree, save the tumor and name it!

Be well. Use your incentive spirometer, walk when you can, as much as you can, eat organically, and remember that positive meditative thoughts will all help you have a quick recovery.